Day 36

Everyone look so epic in this photo

Back in Esplanache ''Masquerade'' March'01

I hate it when I'm in this position.

I don't want to take it

But I know I'll have to need it
& I don't want to be sympathize

This is so mix feeling.

This morning I received a couple of texts that repeatedly interrupted my sleep.
The most ridiculous one I received was..
''Are you attached?''
What the...the number really look so familiar but I've no idea who is that.After which,that person told me that he/she send wrong after I replied,''Erm,you are?''

Woke up,my mum cooked can soup for me.That made my lunch.Head to meet them and get my result!
Firstly,
I am happy that I get GPA.However I am not satisfied with my result at all.Though to others is ok and of course I could promote,but I'm not happy with it at all.Art is so time constraint and it took alot of my time during the ''N'' level period.To be honest,I sucks at time management so I didn't revised much.Couldn't blame no one but myself.
Secondly,
there's seriously many unexpected people that did so well this time even though I used to be ahead of them.Even people who encouraged people to go ite can secretly mug hard behind and be top scorer.Cannot make it man.I felt like I just fell from 100th storey building.

So now I'm doing self reflection upon how should I be doing next year.Many people just promote and eventually give up halfway because of the amount of stress.I really don't want to be in that position.I could still remember how Pearlina answered me ''Don't know leh.I come to sec 5 to see see and play play only,see I can make it anot.'' Haha.

After getting result,eat then swim.I walk in water for an hour plus.Good exercise man! HAHA.As usual,Bin will encouraged me to swim and others will guide me.I still can't swim.Still remember Kent promised to teach me swimming when ''O'' level is over but a promise is a promise.A promise means nothing and it can be forgotten or broken easily.Just got to admit this harsh fact.

Accompany Ang on her train home and went to find Yao for dinner.

Working tomorrow.
Shag,if only I have a bunch of same age people whom I can communicate alot with.Otherwise,I stand there like a zombie when there's no customer during my work.

The castle that the boy had been consistently building up in the air is tumbling down.
& he cried when he knew the truth.