Day 07

Again and again,everyone just like to take advantage of me.

The most disappointing issue was you.It's been almost a month.First something happen then now I'm in a pathetic state whereby sometime I eat packet noodle just to fill my stomach full,and I believe all these are not over and another wave will be coming soon.All this never ending waves could drive me insane.As a few of my buds would know,I'm not having good times now like some other do.I'm having a bad time but i believe everything happen to me up until now make me grow stronger,thus change me into a better person.
Especially these 2 days play a very important part in my life,somebody decision could make a difference for me.I've never been so worried in my life before.I even hold my phone tight,ensure that it is on my hand before I head sleep.However,I was not accepted,praying hard,shedding tears.Still,everything comes back to square one.Fcuk,even I tell myself I will be working harder but still,I'm thrown back into the drain by one decision.I don't care any shit anymore,I will find ways to get through this period and get back on my feet.Pay back those who enjoy using me in the name of bestfriend or whatever shit.You could even use ''brother'' to say as the term between us when you treat me like shit.All these were lies.Only true friends stick to me,be my pillar whenever I'm in my most down period.Surprisingly,these few days some people are just there for me all the time even when didn't ask for.I appreciated alot,I won't let their effort go into waste,instead,I will let their choice be a ride worthwhile.One day when I get back on my feet,I'll be victorious.

I seriously detest guys stare-ing at girls,face,ass or whatever.So what if some girls are pretty,do they deserve to be stare with those kind of eyes?They deserve the respect just like you want others to respect you.Seriously this is so sick.If you tell me ''this is guy's nature''.Seriously stop your excuses and just shut the fuck up and admit that you're one sick minded pervert.I have a handful of these pervert friends,sadly.

Again,I don't understand why so many of my friend just like to take advantage of me.So am I wrong to treat you at my best I could?At least now I get a better view of who's true to me.